Call me Motivated (To Do Nothing)

Midnight Coffee Monster begged for an update soon after my last post (dated Sep. 26th, 2012 — a date which causes my face to cringe into an ugly, wrinkled thing for a head. This is true; I do not lie. Especially when I consider the length of time that has since passed). Unfortunately for this blog, as well as for devoted subscribers (i.e., imaginary creatures created for my own blogging comfort), I find it easy to ignore things (and people). The reason is simple: Motivation flew off to an unknown destination and forgot to take me with it. Motivation is living it up in some place more obscure than Waldo’s hide-outs and I’m…

Failing statistics, eating cake, failing to dutch braid, finishing my Nobuta wo Produce obsession, not finishing my other Asian drama obsessions, and generally accomplishing small deeds in life, like:

Original melodramatic post brought to you by: Raya

And I can’t forget Thursday morning’s adventure:

I love the taste of future heart disease and clogged arteries.

In summary, these are my excuses for not updating sooner. My apologies (sincerely, because I miss everyone here on WordPress). Although I swear on every book I own and have read that doing poorly in statistics rains stress! pressure! and: stress! Statistics, I am afraid, is more of a foreign language than my German class. I treat the last couple of exam grades in math as things so unacceptable, so embarrassing, that: What, are you joking? Those aren’t mine… It’s equivalent to the time when I was nine and enjoyed tormenting my mother in the grocery store. To Mom’s horror, I enjoyed re-enacting Riverdance. “Stop it,” she’d hiss, and smile warily at passersby, as if to say, “That’s not my child…” Unlike my stubborn personality, I hope my statistics grades do not stay consistent but rather leap to improve. I hope, I hope. There’s another exam next week, after all (which I need to study for…).

But don’t worry. I didn’t come here with the intention to bore all readers about my mathematical woes. Instead, I’d like share giveaway wins and books I purchased last month!

The following are all books I won, the first 3 from GoodReads First Reads:

As I do with most books these days, I sat Celona’s novel down after 70 or so pages — a choice made not because Y is a poorly written book (because I don’t believe it is), but because I hit a reading slump. No matter how brilliantly written, I can’t seem to finish a book without a push of effort, Hulk-strength edition. Slowly, I feel my book-love coming back, but I feel it’s in direct correlation to my math grades. Until then, I fear all these books will sit unread for the time being (with the exception of Sumo — a very fast read), but interest in them still holds.

Lastly, I mustn’t forget:

I won a copy of Jiménez’s The Circuit just by commenting over at Vamos a Leer, a blog created and run by a wonderful group of people from the LAII at the UNM. Weeks have passed since I’ve read a post from anyone’s blog, but I can always expect to discover new titles to check out at Vamos a Leer. Count on this blog to have great books to share (and giveaways!), so head over and give it a read-over — I don’t think it will disappoint you.

In addition to the previously mentioned books, I also purchased — for the first time ever! — used books (online). While I am not inexperienced in whipping cash out for used books, I have only done this in-store. You know, once I have flipped-through pages and examined the damage level. I must say that going through on the decision to buy used books online felt uneasy, because there is little else in this world that will force me into sighing non-stop for hours than a horribly damaged book. Not only that, but: Hey! I spent MONEY on this! I adore the aged look of vintage books, but I also adore quality — more so if the book is not vintage.

Curious to see what the mailman stuffed inside the mailbox?

First up: The Gathering Storm (Katerina #1) by Robin Bridges! Although the description read “USED LIBRARY BOOK,” the seller shipped me an ARC edition instead. (In fact, I received several old ARCS, which were not part of the books’ descriptions.) I should hope there are no major differences between the ARC and final copy… Does anyone know?

I discovered this book on Savindi’s blog, The Streetlight Reader, and I couldn’t fight curiosity off after reading her reviews. I know she loves this trilogy so far, and I hope to enjoy it just as much! Also, as an additional plus: Russian setting! If you ask me why, I cannot supply an answer to explain my fascination for not only the WWII era, but German settings and, yes, anything Russian-influenced. My interests are what they are.


***If you feel at all interested, you can find Savindi’s reviews on The Gathering Storm and The Unfailing Light by clicking on the respective links.

As you can see, I also ordered a copy of China Miéville’s Un Lun Dun. Per accident, I stumbled on Un Lun Dun‘s GoodReads page while on a hunt for steampunk-like reads. Now, I have no idea how steampunk this book is, but I find the summary irresistible and look forward to the instant I decide to pick it up! My only complaint? It’s another ARC, which — once again — is not what the seller promised.

I sat on my bed for a long time. I sat and sat. Something was wrong inside me, I felt it inside my stomach and I didn’t know what to do. So I layed down on the floor. I stuck out my pointer finger and pointed it at my head. And I pushed down my thumb. And killed myself.

— Howard Buten, When I was Five I Killed Myself

The strong sensation of excitement that literally feels as though it’s coursing through my body cannot be put into proper words. To clearly define that giddy rush, I mean. All us book nerds experience it often, so I know you know what I mean.  These two books, my friends, are all I thought about for months. Does anyone remember a post way back when, and I had checked Crown Duel out from the library? What did I say about it again?

Either I finish the library’s copy or I buy it, which may happen anyway. Now that the book is in my possession, I don’t want to part with it.

Oh, right. Well I bought it.

Unlike the other two books, Buten’s and Smith’s books could not have been described better. Crown Duel displays more wear and tear than I would like, but I’m otherwise very pleased. Buten’s novel, I should add, is in particularly good shape all things considered. It’s the oldest of the bunch, yet — and I would not feel surprised — it is possibly the least touched, as I don’t believe it’s a well-known title (at least not in the U.S.). Aside from a few page-skims, Smith’s books remains unread by my eyes, but I hope for an expect to get lost in one fantastic adventure. As for Howard Buten’s quirky little novel, I did start reading it. The narrative is different from what I expected, but I am in a place where it is still too early to state my overall impressions. (I read up to chapter four and stopped. Ideally, I can have a do-nothing-but-read day and read Buten’s book.) Still, I feel confident enough to say that When I was Five I Killed Myself is as fresh as the title.

O, mine eyes! I know the phrase: “Do not judge a book by its cover.” But who thought up this book design? I’m talking about Burroughs’ Running with Scissors. I don’t judge a story by its cover, but I certainly judge the cover. Quite possibly, this is the ugly duckling that will never become a swan on my bookshelf. No. This is the ugly duckling (and never a swan) on my bookshelf. It was never intended to, of course, but this particular seller sent me a different copy than the image provided online. Disappointment weighs heavily. Other than that, I had hoped to read this last month for the LGBT reading event, but it unfortunately arrived too late — near the end of the month, actually, and besides: I had exams to study for. Such is life for students.

Tales of the Madman Underground was purchased from the same seller that shipped Burroughs’ book, and unlike the former, this book came as described — for the most part. The marker-squiggle that mars the cover doesn’t make me feel happy, but it’s in otherwise good condition.

**IN CASE YOU WISH TO KNOW: I purchased all these books on AbeBooks. Like the rest of my German classmates, I hunted for the cheapest-but-still-in-good-condition textbooks when I realized: AbeBooks isn’t just for textbooks?! Wow-zah. Temptation proved impossible to resist, and that is the story of how six additional books made it on the bill.

“Understanding Statistics,” it says. “It’s easy,” it says. “Why are you stabbing me?” it says.

Well, you guys, that’s all for now. I’m sad that I could not update sooner, but my life has been a mixture of busy and lazy and no blogging. As for weekly book memes, it seems Recommend A… is at a halt.  This is sad news, guys, because it was one of my favorite memes! However, if time allows, I will start TTT posts again on Nov. 20th. I cannot promise consistent book reviews, or even regular posting for that matter.

To pass my last math pre-requisite class with decency (and dignity) is something I need to treat seriously, and! If luck favors me, I will be taking the 8-credit nursing assistant course, which starts in January. (I goofed, and now I’m forced to hand in my application on the last day possible. This course is first-come, first-serve. I pray there’s a spot left.) After these two particular classes, I will finish the rest of my science courses — I dread the impending doom of chemistry. I have yet to hear one kind comment about any of the instructors.

But — before I forget! — I do have some posts planned. Keep an eye out! I just have to write them… and then post them.

Otherwise: I hope all my fellow bloggers are still around, writing, reading, and blogging havoc. I miss reading ALL of your posts, but I miss talking to you all even more. Leave me things write me comments what are you reading and how is life please don’t let crickets fill this silence.


15 thoughts on “Call me Motivated (To Do Nothing)

  1. I feel your pain. Honestly school is just so busy, along with work that I have no motivation to do anything but watch TV and just absorb some nothingness when I get some free time :(. Congrats on all your first read wins :). That’s awesome!! I hope you enjoy The Gathering Storm when you do get to read it :). When do you get off for the Christmas break?

    • I feel the exact same way! Even when I should do productive things I sometimes find myself sitting around and being a general house blob.

      Thanks! I can’t wait to read them :D

      Fall quarter ends on Dec. 14th, which… doesn’t seem too far off when I think about. Another 5 weeks and I go on break? I’m really looking forward to it!

      • I’m so sorry for the late reply yet again. I’m an officially awful blogger friend. As much as I hate to use school as an excuse I have to, that plus work of course. This week got really hectic with both and I’m so glad I was able to get an extension for a 20 page essay. But I did manage to write a review for Wanderlove which I really enjoyed.

        I can’t believe there are only two more weeks of school left for me, which is so crazy when I think about it. Do you have any plans for your break?

      • Ha, oh my gosh — you are not an awful blogger friend! Look at how long it took me to reply, and you sent this back in mid-November!

        So how does it feel to finally be done with school? I know I’d feel relieved. I love school, I do — I like to learn new things and to feel productive, but studying and taking exams can really drain a person’s energy.

  2. Freaky. I was just thinking havent’ seen you a while in a while and here you pop. haha.

    As for school. Bleh. Bleh. Bleh. They just feel the need to push you to do well and topple lots of hard work on you and you have to push yourself because mediocre grades aren’t good. Maths is a horrible subjects, so is stats. It was my worse grade. Least I don’t have to do that anymore, although somehow it still manages to sneak into my life and my biology teacher has ruined my life by telling me that we may very well have to do some form of “stats”. Gah.

    As for The Gathering Storm, I’ll be eager to hear your thoughts after Savindi’s reviews which came straight to my mind when I saw the book.

    Seems like a lot of books your managed to click onto your bill. haha. And a lot of complaints that they aren’t the same as what you ordered. This seems to be the case a lot of the time that odd things pop up with internet orders. One of my history textbooks was in “New” condition and it came with random highlights. What the hell is this?! I saw, I did not order a book with highlights I ordered “NEW”. The highlights weren’t even useful.

    Statistics isn’t easy, it’s horribly hard work. Had to do loads to pass that stupid god damn subject.

    I laughed so hard at the first two pictures. They made me chuckle.

    And are you German?

    • I’ve done well in all my math classes up to this point, which is sad since the program I want to enter will only look at my stats grade. It’s frustrating! Although I blew everything else off so that I could study for my stats test, and for the first time I feel okay about it. …At least I hope I did well. If that amount of studying doesn’t earn a B grade at minimum, I don’t know what will.

      It’s nice when you buy a book from someone who kept good notes in the margins, though! I hope your textbook’s pages aren’t covered in too much highlighter. That’s a huge problem when it comes to making online purchases. I’m always wary unless I have a lot of confidence in the seller. I ended up ordering my stats textbook online as well, and it arrived in a different condition than it was described in. Funnily, I got the instructor’s edition! It’s proved to be helpful since it provides all the correct answers for every problem.

      There’s a small portion of German in me (: I’m so many generations down from Max Planck on my mom’s side, but no one speaks the language unfortunately. Most of my family came from Norway and Sweden, but my school doesn’t offer any classes for those.

      • Wow? Really. That sucks. Well by the sounds of it you should be getting a B grade! I hope all goes well for you.

        No, it’s just a random page which I don’t even use. It was just really weird because it was meant to be new. I wasn’t that bothered to be honest. Well that’s good then. I guess some good things can come from buying online then.

        Ahh right. So where do you live?

      • Thanks (: I did a complete 180, because I earned full points with extra credit on the exams after this post, and I somehow managed an A out of the class! I am just glad it’s all over.

        I live over in the northwest region of WA state in the U.S. I’m close to the Canadian border and not too far from major cities like Seattle. Although we get gobs of rain. I had sincerely hoped we’d get snow over my break, but nope.

        You live in the UK, right? Any snow?

      • Congratulations! That’s really good. I bet you’re very happy with yourself.
        Yes, I do live in the UK. I haven’t actually had any snow where I live, but I know some people have.
        Crazy really. We’re having lots of rain at the moment, floods and everything. I haven’t flooded since I love on a hill, but the rain is terrible.

  3. Glad you’re back! My blogging friends all seem to be caught up with real life lately (I mean seriously, who let’s real life get in the way?? just kidding) so it’s been a bit more quiet on the blogging front than I’m used to. I took stats for the first (and last) time my 2nd year in college and it was the ONLY class I did terribly in. I just don’t get the material. I thought I did but apparently my brain tricked me then decided to rat me out on the final. Good luck in your classes and hope you get to reading all your books soon!

    • Thank you!

      Real life always feels like a nag. I can’t seem read like I used to (when I do feel like reading, anyway), although I can certainly waste hours on drama shows. (I spent five straight hours one Saturday watching a drama and regret nothing.)

      Stats and chemistry may very well be my foes out of all my pre-req courses. I attend class and think I understand the lectures and homework, but then I go and make small mistakes on tests that cost me major points. …And this is just for stats. I’m really dreading chemistry.

  4. Thanks for the Vamos a Leer mention–it’s much appreciated! Looks like you’ve got some great books to read, can’t wait to hear what you think about them! Good luck with that math class!

  5. Good to hear from you again, Raya! WordPress was so silent every time I came to check (which numbered about 3 over the past few months anyway). Ugh… school…
    I wish you all the best in your Statistics class though! I had to take Statistics last year and mostly felt terrible during lectures because all I did was copy the lecturer’s answers to the practice questions. I never understood why things worked that way and honestly, I studied for the finals by checking through the past year papers. Some lecturers just love coming up with the same types of questions over and over again. You just have to know how to do one to know how to do all. Haha.
    Hope you’ll have fun reading your new horde of books too! I’m trying to finish Second Chance Summer by Morgan Matson. Some lighter reading feels good, but school…

    • I have this intense love/hate relationship with school. I enjoy learning and feeling productive, but it can zap my energy and crush my will to do anything. And not to forgot textbook expenses — how I hate those!

      Ha ha, yeah — what you described about your stats class sounds similar to what I’m doing! It doesn’t help that I catch myself zonking out, either. I have never fallen asleep in a class until now! Before I realize it, my eyes are shut for one… two… three seconds, and next my head droops down, ugh.

      That book has received quite a bit of highly rated reviews, I see! I hope you enjoy it (: I’ve considered reading her other book, too, Amy & Roger’s Epic Detour.

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